So.... I was having my weekly torturous read of the Daily Fail website, yes, yes I know but it's kind of like a car crash, sometimes you can't help but look, a morbid fascination if you will. When I happened upon a story about Gemma from TOWIE. Now those of you on the Plus Size fashion scene will probably know who she is, as of late she's been popping up a store openings and speaking of a forth coming plus fashion line. I myself only know of her because of this. I've never seen the programme she features in, but I thought I'd have a read of this article...
The general gistage is, she gave him a hand job a while back and when questioned by his friends if he's slip her one, he basically said, she's pretty but fat, maybe if I was drunk. Well of course I was naturally outraged, vile disgusting little man. If you don't fancy her, just say, "no sorry, I don't fancy her" but don't play the old beer goggles card, you'd either give her one or not. Simple.
After much discussion on twitter it would appear this is not the first time he's said this to her and yet she keeps going back to fratenise with this little scrote.
I of course said I would a. Knock him out and b. not even entertain him. But then I thought back over my dating time and although Gemma herself is the same age as me, she reminds me of me 10 years ago. I have indeed been many a man's dirty little secret, quite happy to get a blow job out of you, but would never take you out in public. Comes home with you after a night out whilst leaving his thin "public" girlfriend at home.
I've been ridiculed in the workplace by all the lads in the garage I worked in, yet still went home several times with one of them, all the time thinking I'd achieved something, but I hadn't had I? Because he'd never tell the lads he liked me, that he'd slept with the fat girl from the office.
And why did I do this to myself? Well, lets not lie, I was horny for starters, but mainly because I wanted attention, I wanted to be loved and validated, but all I was doing was hurting myself. Over and Over again.